So many things we achieve are achieved only through struggle and conflict, not in easy ways. They always seem to involve crosses. I have so longed to find somewhere in life some corner where joy is unmingled with pain. But I have never found it. Wherever I find joy, my own or other people’s, it …
Caterpillar to butterfly without the cocoon Changing, growing, becoming all out in the open for everyone to see Wanting to be hidden in the safety of obscurity I feel like a child jumping around trying to wave my arms so people will see me “This is not who I’ll always be Don’t write me off …
Original post: March 19, 2008; update: January 26, 2010. March 19 was the day I think God really spoke to me about the direction of my life; this was the day that God really broke my heart for justice; this was the day I found my calling. Part of the fun (I use that term …
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Original post: September 25, 2007; update: January 25, 2010. God spoke to me through my crazy dreams last night. Not so much in an audible booming voice, but more in what he revealed: about relationships, about life struggles, about my wanting to escape, feeling pressured and pursued (not in a good way). I want to …
Original post: August 8, 2007. Update: January 17, 2010. “Scar tissue that I wish you saw …” (Red Hot Chili Peppers, ‘Scar Tissue’) Just below my left knee is a scar from slicing my leg open roller-skating when I was about 12. When I was 14, I managed to explode a small (fortunately almost-empty) canister …